Sorry to post woe.
I'm stuck. Urges to SH have been bad for a while. I don't know whether damage control and doing it now/soon is a good idea, or leave it and hope that I don't dissociate and do it (which is likely, given my history around this time). The urges of things I want to do are really really bad, so if I gave in to them, I would be doing less damaging things than what I 'should'/have to do. So there is no guarantee it will be 'enough' for him.
I don't know. I'm sorry.
I'm stuck. Urges to SH have been bad for a while. I don't know whether damage control and doing it now/soon is a good idea, or leave it and hope that I don't dissociate and do it (which is likely, given my history around this time). The urges of things I want to do are really really bad, so if I gave in to them, I would be doing less damaging things than what I 'should'/have to do. So there is no guarantee it will be 'enough' for him.
I don't know. I'm sorry.